I have been opportune to be in an environment where many dread to work, in fact people have asked me why I chose that environment for my clinical internship!! One thing I have come to realize is my own helplessness when I see people so broken and in pain and I can’t just seem to help them the way my heart cries out to them!!
The pain behind those words, the emptiness behind those tears, the loneliness behind those lives. The feeling of guilt, shame, hopelessness, rejection and unforgivable acts. From my state of helplessness, I asked myself, how do they live past this pain? My heart bleeds because I know what pain is, and I have been there before, I completely understand the feeling of shame, rejection, guilt , abandonment and hopelessness.
But there is someone I know who called me out by Himself when I felt so unworthy, when culture chose to rename my purpose and destiny. He called me out when shame and ridicule came knocking on my door by the enemy of my soul!!
I remember that day very vividly!!!
Having lost all hope of bouncing back, and I remember having a conversation with someone earlier that day, she was just wondering and amazed at the fact that God still speaks to me inspite of me!!! I laughed because I never for once left His presence and if there was any anchor I held unto dearly was the One who could see my pain, and hold me tight in His loving arms, telling me ‘ it’s going to be ok.’ Then one day I heard my Father again call me out: He said:
HEPHZIBAH ( wow!! I am still His delight).
That same person I bring to you all tonite!! If you are in that place that you are shouting CAN ANYONE SEE MY PAIN? and desperately need help , call on Him, He sees, He knows when you no longer can bear it, He knows your state of helplessness and hopelessness, infact He has been there before, and He can very well relate to what you are going through. He was betrayed ( by the people He loved most) helpless ( on the cross) , He faced injustice, slander, mockery, physical abuse, abandonment and much more. He knows exactly what you are going through.
”From this time many of his dis ciples turned back and no longer followed him” (John 6:66).
My soul is overwhelmed with sorrow to the point of death” (Matthew 26:38).
Again and again they struck him…and spit on him. Falling on their knees, they paid [mocking] homage to him” (Mark 15:19).
He healed me of all pain, He restored my brokenness ( I CAN SCREAM, I AM UNBROKEN) .
Call on Him today, He hears you!! You are still His delight!!
YOU ARE FORGIVEN BECAUSE HE WAS FORSAKEN!!